Fifth.

You could say that March has been a month of reality checks and wake- up calls. The amount of information I've learned about people, life, and most importantly myself is absolutely overwhelming. Here's what I've learned:

-Don't take anything for granted. Ever.

-ALWAYS think before you act and before you speak. Don't make decisions without fully analyzing the situation at hand.

-Don't focus on and stress about the things you have no control over.

-Take it all one day at a time.

and

-Don't close your heart off. Be cautious, but don't be inaccessible.

Someone from my past told me that I couldn't distance myself from anyone who had ever hurt me or let me down. Unfortunately, they fit right into that category of people. I disagree with them on some levels. I think its my right as a human and a young women to protect and take care of myself, and if that involves distancing myself from those who cause me harm, then I believe I am well within my rights to do so. However, they were right on some counts. I can't cut out anyone who ever disappoints me even once. If I do, there won't be anyone left at the end of the day.

I've disappointed myself this month, though. I've been put in situations that I handled things badly and the outcome could have been much more positive, and I've been put in situations that were completely out of my control once they started, and even these I've handled badly. And now I'm stuck wishing that I hadn't put myself in those situations in the first place.

You live and you learn and you move on. It just takes a while sometimes.