But I'm so scared to go back. I'm scared that I'm not going to find what I'm looking for. I'm scared that I'll get there and it won't be what I need. I'm scared that I'm not going to be able to find a church where I feel at home again.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Sixth.
I found a church to go to here in Charleston. I need to go. I need support from something and someone greater than just my friends and my family. I need a place to go that can just be my space where I can sit and think and figure things out. The service starts at 9:00 am. Its only two blocks from campus. I know what to wear.
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The youth pastor at my church said something the other day that might help you somewhat: each day following God is like a sheet of paper being added to a stack. You don't have to do something extraordinary for it to count, just do what God asks of you today. It may not seem like much at first, but one day you'll look back and realize that there are 6,000 papers in your now tall stack. Nothing you do, no book you read or church you go to can jump you ahead and give you more than one sheet of paper for that day.
ReplyDeleteI love you girlie. Be brave. It's just church, and if this one totally sucks it doesn't change your relationship with God, it just means you don't like it and you want to go to another church. There's a reason there are millions of them